People are complicated. Weird in their own way. Hard to please, hard to understand. One day, they said they love you with all their heart, another day they hate you almost for no reason. One time, they said they can't live without you. Another day come by, they can run into you like nothing ever happened before.
For me, it's almost like surreal. Impossible to just walk away from the people I once said I love with all my heart, and some more. I always fall in love, but when I really fell, hard, it's almost impossible to forget him. Like I did, with you.
I don't really know what's going on with us. Everything's fine. From the beginning of our friendship, until you proposed me as your girlfriend. We're good. It's just us against the world. Until one day, you make your distance. You slowly distance yourself from me. From texts a day until it is just a text per day. And on the climax, it was no text at all. That's when I ask about us, about our status, And you made those decision. We'll take a short break.
I didn't know what's going on. I didn't know what's my fault. Along these days, I mourn, I shut myself from everyone. I push everyone away because I was hoping that you'll come back to me, someday. That you said it was over, You're done taking your time, your space and we'll be like usual, like before. I'm in despair all these time because I was waiting for you. I'm waiting for your call, your text. Text that saying you miss me too. You want me to be your baby girl. One and only. But it was never came.
And today, after 166 days of waiting, I got the answer. I still don't know what's my fault till today. What I know is, you're a heartless human being who don't have a gut to tell another living person, another human being with feelings, what you really feel. And in the end, you blame another people for your stupid reason.
I really don't know what's holding me from moving on until I send those texts. And when I got the answer, I have no regret at all. At least I know who you really are. I'm waiting and waiting for nothing. I know that you won't come back to me but the hope is high. Because I am really in love with you. But now, after six months of waiting, there's nothing for me to wait for you. In fact, I think it's good for me to not waiting at all.
Knowing you, loving you was a privilege for me. Not in a second I'm regretting the moment we were together. It's just sad that the truth moment is more hurt than I've ever imagine. Yeah, I know that you won't read any piece of this but it was a relieve when I can wrote here.
C'est la vie. All in all, I wish you have a nice life ahead. Thank you for having me before.
