Pain.

Why is it so pain even just to think about you? And talking about you made me suffer. Why are you doing this to me?

Please come back. I'm so suffocated without you. Please :(

Hanging on.

74 days. And I'm hanging on. Still.

Everything about you aching me inside. I can't even forget it but to remember it, it shattered my heart into pieces. Everything that I look, I do, will remind me about you.

The books you gave to me.
The song that I listened to.
The picture of us together.
The memories that we used to have.
The dreams that I'm sure right now will never come true.

I don't know how to breathe properly. I don't even read the books anymore. At least not now. Because touching the book itself reminds me a lot. Of you. So I arrange the book in a nice manner for me to look at it every single day and give me courage to read back, one fine day.

I want to let you go. But I don't know how to. You keep yourself in me so much. I don't want to let you go. I know I have to. I'm not ready. I love you, still. So much.

And the question remains the same;
Why are you leaving me without words, at the first place? Leave me hanging? You know how much I love you, bibi. Why? :(

Move on.

I don't know how to move on. From you.
Please tell me the ways to move on.
I want to move on.

Or should I continue loving you?